"At least I tried didn't I? God damnit, at least I did that."

Well...I got my own phone, I am independent. The end.

I really need to do better in school, I'm so lazy, but if I don't get better grades I don't know what college is going to accept me. And I can't live in the desert after high school, I just can't do it, I'll suffocate.

I'm still very stressed about everything, mostly money, but other things also. I suppose everything happens for a reason and I just need to let nature take it's course. I haven't dated a lot of girls, but when I did they were older than me, I never thought about what it would be like to be the older one. It's different, very different.

I really hope I'm making the right friends, I hope these are friendships that will last forever, well, if not forever at least a long time. I really need that.